| Long Time in Coming
Emoticón actual:  happy So this blog is long overdue, I know, I know......but all of YOU know how the end of a semester gets. And here I am, at school, on a Sunday of all things, writing a lovely blog for you very nice people. Ahem. Now the reason I'm at school is because my less than a year-old laptop decided to have issues and I finally lost my monitor last week, so until I am once again in the USA I've got to find an external monitor to hook up to if I want to use my compu, the most easily accessible happens to be at school for now, so here I am. I will be in Florida June 8th through 24th, so if you want to see me come to church one of those weekends that those dates include or call me on my cell, it's the same number I used to have, but for those of you who have forgotten that would be 321-960-9925..... School is ending up and only 3 more days until I can break out of the box....I have thoughts on that, but I shall wait until I'm truly done in order to expound upon them, for now, just make sure you thoroughly know what you're getting into backward, forward, inside and out, as much as possible before you commit to anything..... Ok, and now...in order to remove the whole trickle down information notification system or whatever.................................................jajaja
Jake and I are dating(or whatever you'd like to call it when we're in different countries......), for those of you who didn't pick than one up from my profile this has been going on for the past few months and for those of you who never knew it's the continuation of an 8 year story, a rather good story I'd say......
and that so be it, we know I don't do details on here. This has been an interesting year and semester....and in three days it will be done. All things go according to my plan these will be the last three days I EVER teach in a stuctured environment, course that's up to God, but I really hope I don't ever have to do this again...m' just not cut out for it, but now I know that on His power I can survive anything and that good things can come out of anything, no matter how impossible it seems at the time. When we're at the point of giving up and even starting to wonder if it's worth it at all, He still there....when we can't dance and we've been carried so far and it seems like He's only barely getting us through, sometimes it's cause our wounds are so deep that He has to heal us and help us walk before we can dance again....in that we play a part too...when you're recovering from a serious injury most of the time you heal physically much quicker than you do mentally...........I remember several times after I'd have an injury at Belhaven and go back to class, sure it'd take a little bit to get my strength back, but even after that it would take a huge effort for me to believe that it was strong again and to act on the belief. Honestly to this day I have never completed the combination that we were doing when I injured my knee, I've done the entire thing up to the tour and I still cannot master my fear enough to do it(now that might change were I to get back in ballet at this point, but that's another thing altogether)........and now it's time to connect all that. Sometimes we are hurt; it happens, we're not as tough as we think we are sometimes; we let God take us, heal us, and put us back in a place of usefulness.....at that point I think more doubt comes in than ever before, no matter what we went through, and it's a point where Satan hits us hard.....we *know* that we have been healed and are able to be used by God and we *know* we've learned things from what ever we went through, we *know* that we should be able to go and do now.....but sometimes we don't *believe* it, we're certain that we'll just mess up again, and we're really not strong enough yet, that we need more time. But that's so not true!!!! God wouldn't have put us there if He didn't think we'd b able to handle it; we want to be strong enough to *know* and *believe* that we'll make it and this will never happen again, or anything like it. But we can't, because if we did, where would faith be? Faith that no matter what we *know* God knows what He's doing, faith to do what we know is right, what is true, what is God's will, even if we don't *know* what will happen after that. And so it is......unfortunately hindsight is 20/20 and rarely can anyone tell you this until you've been through it. So.....if you've been through this you know what I'm talking about and you're not alone; if you're somewhere in it now, have FAITH and just go for it God's got you; and if you haven't been through anything of the type yet, I hope you'll listen now and listen to those who tell you the same thing if and when it happens to you cause if you can get this concept before you deal with it, it makes everything different. And this was supposed to be a quickie update blog and that was it.....so much for that, jaja....but we are at the end now...... Isaiah 49:16a "For I (God) have inscribed you in the palms of my hands...." He can't forget us, every time He looks at His hands He must remember us, cause we're INSCRIBED there. |
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